When I started surfing, I loved everything about it. The ocean, the salt, the feeling of catching a wave. But almost immediately, I turned it into a progression. Longboard was the stepping stone. Shortboard was the goal. And I chased that goal so hard that I broke my nose twice, burned out, and spent two years away from the water before I understood what I'd been doing.

A few weeks ago, my Pilates teacher told me something I haven't stopped thinking about: my spine had flexibility, but I didn't know where my lower back was. I wasn't actually in it. This episode is about what that moment opened up, and what it means to come home to the parts of your body you've been quietly ignoring for years.

When stress hits, your body leaves the room first. You go up into your head, and into the spinning, and the standard advice to "just breathe" rarely brings you back. This episode is about what actually works, and why coming back to your body is different from calming down.